I am your safe place. Your comfort. Your nourishment. When you are sad, hungry or tired, it is only me you want, I am the keeper of the solution to bring you back to calm again. There are times when I feel touched out or overwhelmed with how much you need me but my darling, I wouldn't change it for the world. You are only so little for such a short while, your impending first birthday is proof of that. Soon you won't need me as much as you do and I will miss each and every moment, even at 3am when all that will soothe you is my milk, nothing else. You are my last so I know I am gripping onto each moment for dear life as I never want it to end. Right now, this moment, it is pure perfection and I never want to forget it.

Teething.

Not even going to sugar coat it, teething sucks. And for you parents out there who's kids happily get through teething with barely a whimper, parents of babies who struggle through teething hate you. If this is actually true, I hate myself. Lily got through teething pretty well, by her first birthday she had nearly a full set of teeth - no joke. And those chompers were brutal. Like cut you nipple and make it bleed so you had to stop breastfeeding brutal. Luna on the other hand, the poor thing seems to take f o r e v e r  to have teeth come through, and we always know when they are coming Right now her top two front teeth are cutting, you could say sleep is a distant memory. You could also say coffee has replaced my actual friends, I hang out with it that often. But they are so close to pushing completely through and when that day comes, I'm going to do a happy dance and rejoice that the days of having my nipple rippes off during feeds will have come to an end...until her next few teeth start trying to come through. For now, I'm going to enjoy about 5 mins of a 20 minute yoga video tutorial with an 11 month old trying to steal my phone while I watch said video and make myself a cup of coffee instead and cuddle my teething babe while we curl up and watch a movie instead.