I never thought we would co-sleep, it certainly wasn't in our 'plans', though what are plans when you become a parent? I feel like that word almost gets thrown out the window when you have children. And it's ok that it does. Life is full of surprises and mystery. Remember how I said no two children are the same even if they came from you? Lily did co-sleep in the sense that she was in our room until 8 months old but she only jumped in bed with us during the feed that occurred before getting up for the day and even then I enjoyed the cuddles. Luna on the hand, we even bought the same bassinet that Lily had, thinking it was perfect the first time around so why not grab it again, oh man were we in for a shock when we got home that night after having Luna and she would only sleep on myself or my fiancé, Jesse. Through sleep deprivation we decided that she would sleep in bed with us and it made breastfeeding a million times easier for the pair of us plus it calmed her being so close. Jesse ended up building a co-sleeper to attach to my side of the bed and 9 months later, she is still happily sleeping next to me in it. I had tried recently to get her into a cot, even just for day sleeps and for about a week or two it worked but then it didn't. So here we are again, laying down next to each other whilst trying to get her off to sleep for a day time nap. She likes to be able to hold my hand, to touch my face too, she likes to pull me in if I try to slip away quietly, she likes to bite me if she thinks I'm not paying attention, she likes to snuggle with her legs up on my stomach, fitting as perfectly as she did when that was her home. She finds comfort in me, in being so close. It makes me feel incredibly special. I guess I hold onto these moments even tighter knowing that she is our last baby. The days can be incredibly hard sometimes but I know that I am going to look back, like I do with Lily, and I will miss her being so small, so dependent of me. I will miss breastfeeding her, that being what soothes her and nourishes her. So for now sweet babe, you can stay in our bed because one day you won't be right next to me, crying out in the middle of the night to be fed or held and when that day comes, I will miss even the hard moments terribly.